Damm missing my family and friend

27 Oct
today morning as usual wake up earlier wanna go working...
damm tired and fell so sleepy...
cause yesterday i sleep late also...
i watch movie till din realise what time already...
my cousin come back home than only i realise already late....
i straightly go sleep.....
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today!!!
haiz....
damm miss my family and friend!!!
i don't know why!!!
in the beginning i din't fell so miss them!!!
after i come back from taiping for few time...
im getting more miss my family....
my mum....my daddy!!!and also my grandpa!!!!
(crying when i write this blog)
i really miss them!!!
wanna go home and meet them!!!
see them!!!
every time no matter i call my parent or my parent call me...
i really wanna cry!!!
i wanna hug them and say!!!
mami...papa!!!i miss u so much!!!
i live here like hell.!!!!
i thought i can live far from them in the beginning
i thought i can handle all this!!!
but now!!!!
i know how much i need them and how much i love my parent
i only know....i miss, i love my parent so much!!!
sometime i fell like want to cry!!!
but i don't!!!cause i don't want to let whole house know!!!!
especially my sister!!!
i know she won't believe ...
and also won't know what i fell now...
better don't let her know!!!
haha!!!!
now i already live far from my parent for few month!!!
i need to know....and
i also need to learn to not depend on my parent
i have to learn how to INDEPENDENT
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT IS INDEPENDENT MEAN OF!!!
how hard my parent earn money!!!just for us(their children)
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suddenly so miss my friend!!!!
i suddenly flash back our school time!!!
that time we are so happy and also so relaxing!!!
when we are still study!!!
me and my friend always going out till night...
that is me,ferng,and also ying!!!
three of us always stick together since form three...
but when form three we not so close...
untill form five....
only our relationship!!!!
our FRIENDSHIP!!!
getting closer and also we promise will stay together whatever
happen!!!!
we also got plan wanna stay together after form five
when we start going out looking for work!!!
and stay together!!!
not only this!!!!
we plan much much more!!!
but.....
all not as we plan also!!!!
haiz.....
so miss them!!!!
what to do!!!!
now ferng are studying at kampar...
ying stay at taiping working...
and me!!!!
more far from them!!!
stay at kl working!!!!
MISSING THEM ALLOT!!!
i was wondering!!!
and always think!!!!
will our friendship will last forever and not change at all!!!!
scared also sometime!!!!
scared all will become different!!!!
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almost i every day talking phone with my best friend!!!
hope every thing gonna be like before!!!not changing at all...
i want our relationship!!!
our friendship wont be end like the happen to the other people!!!
YING!!!FERNG!!!
MISS U BOTH A LOT!!!
(my best jimui)best friend!!!
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wanna write more!!!
but now my mind is blank!!!
and i fell sleepy also!!!
good night!!!
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